A fertilizing presence

As I promised myself, I took yesterday’s blog to work to remind me of what my intent is. All day long, I kept thinking “this moment is tomorrow’s fertilizer.” And, I thought, “I hope it smells okay.”

Occasionally, I would think “One of these tomorrows, I will have to pay for all this doo-doo I am spreading around here today.” I know what THAT will smell like.

And you thought this was going to be something about fertility or having babies — something pleasant that smells real pretty.

Nope. I’m growing different stuff here. I’m growing tomorrow.

Because we are gifted with past memory and the ability to anticipate our future, we know how life has been in the past. While we cannot guarantee how life will be tomorrow, we know enough to rely on the fact that if nothing changes, our tomorrow will pretty much be like today.

But, of course, life changes. Sometimes we are in charge of the change. Sometimes, change seems random and arbitrary . . . more like it happens to us rather than because of us. There is even a school of thought and theory that believes we are the cause of everything that happens in our lives.

And it does not matter if we believe that theory or not. What matters is tomorrow is going to happen (even if your body dies, you will continue to exist), so what do we want to plant today to grow tomorrow?

In each moment, I have to be completely present so that I can be present for the next moment. That is the first seed I work to plant each day. Next, I pay attention to my eternal presence and respond with the thoughts, words, and actions that are congruent with my true presence. That is my fertilizer. I like who I am finding: someone who loves peace and tranquility but who also loves to work through challenges . . . someone who knows there is enough in the world for everyone so most of our conflict in this reality is just made-up nonsense . . . and someone who believes in her power to create tomorrow by taking care of today.

©2010 by Barbara L. Kass

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6 Responses to “A fertilizing presence”

  1. holessence Says:

    “I’m growing tomorrow.”

    Barbara – that definitely causes me to pause and reflect about the type of doo-doo I’ll fling around today — on a number of levels.

    I just came from the CelebrationGoddess blog (http://celebrationgoddess.wordpress.com/2010/05/15/thanking-the-lord-im-still-only-in-my-40s/) where she recounts a day spent volunteering in a nursing home. That brought to mind what the comedian who lived to be 100, George Burns, said:

    “If I had known I was going to live this long, I would have taken better care of myself!”

    Just like you said, today we are growing tomorrow.

    • Barbara Kass Says:

      Hi, Laurie — I went to the CelebrationGoddess blog and you are right . . . what a reality check! Especially the woman lighting a cigarette from the 100th birthday cake . . .

  2. jeffstroud Says:


    I think this is rich and full of nutrients, yet my brain is not clear enough to smell the earth meaning as of yet, so I am coming back later…

    I am Love, Jeff

  3. Barbara Kass Says:

    Hi, Jeff . . . at least I am non-caloric . . .

  4. sandiwhite Says:

    Ypost struck in my heart. Having been caught off balance ou can’t begin to know what a chord this post has struck in my heart. Having been caught short and off balance at least once this year, I have begun doing what every good gardener does, re-assessing my Life’s garden. If I should do this thing, what will the consequences be? If I neglect that in favor of the other, will I pay for it later in added labor? So my plan of action for today, since it will rain this afternoon, is to pull a few weeds, install a few plants, but most important of all, apply some fertilizer. All living things, dreams as well as plants, need to be fed to be healthy and it is not such a hard thing to do at all.

  5. Barbara Kass Says:

    Hi, Sandi — you of all people know how important it is to plant life based on the needs of what we want to grow; I, too, will be outside in our 75 degree sunshine day (yesterday it was 94 — whew!) transplanting my garden into more containers to fertilize my desire for eye candy within a few weeks time.

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